I feel helpless, worthless, hopeless I have no energy, no purpose, I feel isolated I feel overwhelmed I am in despair and afraid I am in a space devoid of hope I am all I and no I Panic is constant Roses don't smell of anything I've had wild thoughts that I was dying, and panicked I can’t sit still, something is agitating my body and my mind, and I'm anxious It’s like being in a closed space, it's claustrophobic. How do I get out when I feel swept up in a swirling vortex? Someone inside me is intent on soul murder; who is it? Can I talk to her? Will she answer? Is there anyone there? No, it’s just me and my fear, we’re bad company. But what is the fear? It’s not rational, I can’t explain it but it’s all mine, it gets going inside me. Is my chemistry out of balance? Are they ’bad thoughts' because I feel guilty, ashamed, remorse, regret? It’s funneling, whirling, gaining momentum and force, like a tornado, a circular swirl with an empty centre. Is that centre lifeles...